Hope For the Hopeless
This is a fellowship blog for all Christian and Non-Christian Men and Women struggling with sexual addiction. And for those who it affects.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
God and Temptation
That is just what happened to me last night. I was upset about something and I turned to God's word for answers. I found the answer in the book of James, but it wasn't the answer I wanted. I wanted an answer like "It's ok" or "You deserved to get what you wanted and you're allowed to be upset". Good thing God doesn't always give us what we want, but always gives us what we need.
James 1:2-9 "(2)My brethern, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; (3) Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. (4) But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing. (5) If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. (6) But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed. (7) For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord. (8) A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. (9) Let the brother of low degree rejoice in that he is exalted:"
So this is telling me something that I already know, that I am going to be tempted but the hard part is to be joyful about it. It reminds me of the story of Paul and Silas when they were in prison singing the praises of God. I always thought that if I were put in prison for my faith that I could do the same thing. As you may or may not know, as they were singing the walls began to shake and their chains fell off. Looking at that story you might be tempted to think the same way I did. But could you keep doing that if the walls did not shake. Just because God released them, that doesn't mean He will release you. And still you must be joyful.
Then it tells us that the trying of faith takes patience and we are supposed to let patience work. Patience is one thing that I struggle with over and over again. In this day in age where everything is fast, it is hard to be patient for anything. We want our food to come quick, our information to come quick, and our healing from God to come quick. And if we don't hear immediately from God then we think we have done something wrong. There is a really good quote "God is rarely early, but he is never late". We must allow our patience to grow and work.
God then throws us a lifeline. He says that we can pray for wisdom. Wisdom is the greatest gift that can be given. When King Solomon was asked to be given anything that he desired, he asked God for wisdom, and he became one of the wisest men in the Bible. The trick is that we must ask unwavering. If you are not truly coming to God asking for wisdom in the most humble, selfless, childlike way then your prayer will not be answered.
James 1:12-17 "(12) Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. (13) Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: (14) But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. (15) Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death. (16) Do not err, my beloved brethren. (17) Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning."
How many times have you hear, or even said, "I am being tempted by God". This set of verses is self explanatory for the most part. If God can't be tempted by evil, which is proven when Jesus was in the wilderness for 40 days, then he can't tempt others by evil.
This is really a love hate set of verses for me as an addict. It is so easy to slip back into the depression because it is comfortable, and it's hard to do the right thing. Even if your slip doesn't result in acting out, it is still getting you comfortable wanting that warm, scratchy blanket.
God Bless
Monday, August 1, 2011
To the Oppressed
James 2:8-11 "If ye fulfil the royal law according to the scripture, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself, ye do well: But if ye have respect to persons, ye commit sin, and are convinced of the law as transgressors. For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all. For he that said, Do not commit adultery, said also, Do not kill. Now if thou commit no adultery, yet if thou kill, thou art become a transgressor of the law."
What James was saying that if you keep all the commandments except one that you have sinned against the law of God. So what does God say about sin?
Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
Ok so if we sin then we deserve death. That should only be us really bad people right?
Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;"
So everyone has sinned. Everyone has come short of the glory of God. Am I saying that telling a lie is the same as murder? Yes I am. The Bible does not give us any distinction between sins. It does not say that one is better than the other. Sin is sin, and the wages of sin is death. But there is hope for the hopeless, and the believers.
John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."
Jesus Christ paid the ultimate sacrifice for us on the cross. He died so that we could ask for forgiveness and be forgiven.
So remember, those who are oppressed of who feel oppressed, there is always someone who loves you no matter how far you fall. And no matter how far you run away from Him, He will always be with you. If you are reading this and have not received Jesus as your Lord and Savior, then I invite you to check my blog on "Getting Right with God".
One final note before you decide to strike those who have oppressed you. Remember with the following verses that if Jesus did not condemn the world, then who are we to do the same. Why should we judge, when we are called to love one another, as we love ourselves. For those who don't feel love for yourself, just remember the God in Heaven loves you more than anything else in the world. He is our Sheppard, and He will leave His whole flock just to find one lost sheep.
John 3:17 "For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved."
Matthew 7:1-4 "Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam in thine own eye?"
Thank you for reading, and God Bless.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Fellowship
I'm going to get into a bit of the technical aspects of the subject. Please bare with me, and please don't skip this section. It is at the core of what we as Christians are. The first known use of the word fellowship is unknown, but it is listed prior to the 12th century. The easiest definition of fellowship is companionship. Companionship is the good feeling you get when your around someone, or others. Another definition states "a company of equals or friends".
So now that we got that part out of the way, on to the really good stuff. Those who are reading this are most probably addicts, co-dependents, or friends/family. A lot of you might be familiar with a 12 step program of one kind or another. Anyone who has been to a good 12 step meeting will know the true meaning of fellowship. For those that don't know or have not been to one, I'll explain. Most meetings are only open to those who are addicts or those who are seeking relief. That means everyone in there is equal. Some could be on different steps, but we are all addicts and that will never change. The meeting is not run by some clinical Physiologist, but rather it is run by a fellow addict. We have all sinned in this area, and open to talk about anything. There is a section in the meeting when each person gets a chance to share about themselves, experiences, or troubles they are having. Everyone is completely open because we all know what they are going through. Or they might say something that rings true in our own lives. The best part is that only the person who is sharing can talk. Nobody is allowed to comment, argue, or try to help during the share. Then after the meeting, no matter how late it is, there are always people staying behind for fellowship. That is our time to converse with each other. Nobody has to stay for it, but people gladly do. You could talk about anything you want, but people talk about how they are doing with their addiction, exchanging phone numbers, offering help at any time day or night. This is what it truly means to have fellowship. There are people at the meetings who have different idealistics, different religions, different sexual orientations, but yet every one is combined by the one fact that we are addicts, and we can't do this alone. So when John says that we need to fellowship with each other and with God and Jesus Christ, these meetings fit the definition of the word completely. Is this how you fellowship?
Is this how your relationship with God and Jesus Christ is? Is this how your Church fellowships? How often do you go to Church and not talk to anyone about God, or about what God is doing in your life? If your an addict, have you told your elders, pastors, or anyone in the Church? And if you did, what became of it? Do you have any conversations with anyone from Church any other day besides Sunday? Or do you walk into Church, talk to a few people you know, worship, listen to the sermon, and try to beat the traffic jam on the way out the door. I would be willing to bet that most people can agree with most if not all of this.
I have sat in a Church sermon listening about how bad sin is, and as I look around I see all these people who look like their worst sin was lying to their boss or something. And here I am sitting there knowing that I had recently cheated on my wife, or looked at pornography, or tricked some girl I met online to send me naked pictures. How could Jesus possibly forgive me? Well he took a sinner as low as me, and took me into his arms and forgave me. There is not a sin that God has not seen or dealt with before. How can we look at ourselves and say that we are not worthy of forgiveness to the point that we won't ask for it? Because we don't know that there are others out there just like us. Churches all around the world have this problem. It could be a friend, a visitor sitting in the back, someone on the worship team, or possibly the pastor giving the sermon. Focus on the Family did a poll of pastors. They asked them to honestly say if they had looked at pornography in the last month. 30% of pastors said that they did. 30% of the men that we look up to for guidance, that we respect are hiding behind their own sins.
We need to bring fellowship back to our churches. We need to talk to each other, and really talk. Talk about your feelings, talk about your struggles, talk about your addiction. There needs to be some time where everyone can open up and share. Why should the pastor talk the whole time? Why can't there be a time after the sermon for people to talk about the sermon, or what is going on in their lives? The answer is that it would take up more time, and they would be afraid that they would lose members, and money. Once the Church is not afraid to fellowship with each other, they won't be afraid to fellowship outside the Church. It's great that the Church will give money to people to preach the word of God in other countries, but what about here. What about the country who takes God, the foundation of it's country, out of everything. What about the country who's message is tolerance? I agree that tolerance is necessary, but not to the point where I can't talk to people about God because I don't want to offend them. There is a good chance you will offend them. Most people don't come to God easily. Most people come to God when they have hit rock bottom, and nobody cares about them, and they cry out for God's love and mercy. So they get offended. Maybe you just planted a seed that will grow later. Who cares how they got to God, as long as they do. But we can't be the Christians we were called to be, if we can't even talk to those who are equal to us. People have fought and died for Christianity. Some for good and noble reasons, and others for arrogant reasons. Would you die for your faith? Would you give up your job for your faith? Would you give up your family for your faith? And if the answer is no, can you be the Christian that God has called us to be?
Saturday, July 30, 2011
7/31/2011 (1:12AM)
The last few days have been rough for me. It feels like my entire future of myself and my family has come down to these few days. Trying to figure out if i'm going to stay in this job or not. If I do how it is going to work, and if I don't where am I going to work. Add on to that I am trying to catch up on some homework that I am way behind. There is still alot of things for me to be thankful for. I have been sober from my sex addiction since 6/12/2011. My wife has continued to stand by me and support me inspite of my addiction. She has her moments, but she mostly has a cheerful heart and wonderful disposition. I could not be happier, or love her or anyone more. I am thankful for the birth of my 5th child. I am thankful for my God and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I continue to pray and seek God for wisdom and understanding for my future. I also pray for disernment to hear His voice. I know that God's will, will be done. I just can't wait to see what He has in store for me.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
My Testamony
Getting Right with God
2000 plus years ago a man named Jesus came to save the world from sin and death. He is the messiah that the Jewish people and the world had been waiting for since the fall of man. Unfortunately the sin of man has tainted the gift that Jesus gave all of us. But even though we still continue to sin, God has found a way for us to be cleansed, through His son Jesus.
Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
In God's Holy text it tells us two things. That we will receive death for our sin, but we can have eternal life through His son Jesus.
Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;"
Romans 5:12 "Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:"
So we have all sinned and we all deserve death. But God has given His promise that if we receive His son Jesus then we will receive eternal life in heaven with Him.
John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
Matthew 7:7-8 "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened".
Alot of addicts struggle with the thought that God could never forgive everything I have done, or they look at their lives and say that they are not worthy to be saved. But that is false.
1 Timothy 1:15 "This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief."
Timothy was saying that he had stayed faithful and had done everything God had asked of him, and yet he counts himself as the chief of sinners. We are not measured by the works or by the actions of others. When it comes down to judgment day, we will all stand before the throne of God and will be judged solely on our own works. The Bible says that no man knows the date or time when the Lord will return, so we must be ready now.
If you feel the Holy Spirit speaking to you and you would like to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior then all you need to do is pray this simple prayer:
Jesus,
I admit that I'm a sinner. I believe that God sent His Son Jesus to come to Earth and die on the cross for my sins. I believe that three days later He rose from the dead and ascended up to Heaven. I believe that He is alive and sits on the right hand of the throne of God. I ask you Lord to be my personal savior, and to wash me white as snow. I thank you and praise you Jesus, Amen.
If you prayed this prayer and meant it in your heart, then you are now born again. I would like to be the first to welcome you, as my new brother or sister, into the family of God.